A man searching for a balanced life has many stories.
So, I recently was told that Ninja Warrior 2013 didn’t accept my application video. This was tough for me to accept, enough that I’ve just got to blog about it just to get things off my chest because it’s distracting me from my writing. Admittedly, I didn’t want to compete as much as many others did, but the feeling of rejection immediately made me question my self-worth.
Am I not athletic enough? Am I not unique enough? Was it the video, or a mistake in the submission, or…something else?
My ego flared, and I had every urge to publicly declare defiance and “up yours” to Ninja Warrior. I mean, how many Asian Male Pole Dancing Parkour Instructor Writing Chiropractors do they really have?
I felt as if I gave them everything they could’ve wanted on a silver platter. Athleticism, unique and significant credentials, varied background, a sympathetic history, and a decent previous run on Ninja Warrior 2012. I wonder if I should’ve said more, or done something different–or not pulled on so much old footage anywhere from 3-4 years ago to throw into the video because I don’t record myself enough (prior to pole stuff). Then again, I didn’t edit the video, and though Ryan Ford was kind enough to cut something together for me last minute as I know exactly zilch about video editing–it didn’t turn out as I’d hoped. I didn’t post it publicly because I was a bit embarrassed by it. Ryan’s a busy guy so he basically pasted everything together without much trimming or emphasis on “da good stuff.” It’s my own fault for relying on him when it wasn’t his responsibility, don’t get me wrong.
Anyway, in the end, I’ve realized that it doesn’t matter WHY. They rejected me for whatever reasons they did (and if I was embarrassed by the video–maybe that’s explanation enough). What’s important is that apparently I have too big an ego. Because if I didn’t care about running Ninja Warrior that much, and their rejection is affecting me this much, then it must be because I thought I DESERVED a spot. My head is too big, and this is a reminder to keep it deflated.
So, here’s my embarrassing Ninja Warrior Sub Vid, and hopefully now that I’ve written this blog, I can move on and focus on all the other things more important than just another rejection in life.
ps–comments like, “There’s always next year,” are unnecessary, but thanks anyway!
Ninja Warrior 2013 Sub: